Change
Being strong and independent is not easy. I am lucky because I am head strong and determined so these qualities have really helped me out. So much has changed lately, its not easy to get my head around everything. Staying occupied and active helps, thinking is not a good idea, so I avoid it, I watch movies and write silly ramblings on a daily basis ensuring I am positive and I smile, always smiling, its actually become a habit… so has smoking… which I need to address really. Change is good, its hard and often sad and upsetting, you always have doubts and for a long while you are likely to be scared. I hadn’t cried in a long time, but today I did, it’s been a long time coming and I hope is passes soon. For anyone out there feeling scared or sad, things happen for a reason, I don’t believe they happen for a divine reason, just because we are who we are and things happen no matter how much we try to avoid or stop them, they will happen and people will get hurt, its not easy and crying is okay. So cry, cry hard and when you’re done smile!!